Unsent messages to Mr.M_____/M____ (2024)

It feels really bad that I think of you but can’t talk to you. So I write my daily thoughts down. Writing help ease my heartbreak. Maybe one day I will forget you and stop updating. I don’t know when will that day come, let’s see.

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Good morning Mr. M :)

When will the plane take off? It will be a long flight, have a safe trip Mr. Mr ;)

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How’s the weather there? Guess it must be sunny. I am a bit jealous of you now Mr.M.

Anyway, take good care of yourself and have some rest, must be tired after the long journey.

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I regretted now. I shouldn’t have been so obedient last time when I met you. Should have grabbed you and hugged you tightly.

You are too bad Mr. M.

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You looked very tempting and delicious when you were shy Mr. M. Gosh you don’t know how hard for me to control my impulse to kiss you when you were driving.

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It’s public holiday today. I have never realized there are so many people in this country haha. People are everywhere and they seem to be so happy and chill.

Do you miss your family Mr. M? Being alone in a foreign country may be easy to feel lonely and homesick from time to time. Well, I miss you. Sending you lots of virtual hugs.

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How’s your trip going Mr. M? Have you tried the fruit chips there haha? Maybe you don’t like snacks, I don’t know, you have never told me before.

I guess it is super sunny there. Don’t forget to use some sunscream :)

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It is an awful day for me. Tired and sleepy all day. The high fever makes me think of you more frequently, but I can’t talk to you. Anyway, I wish you a wonderful day Mr. M.

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Still don’t feel well. Wanna see you but maybe you don’t want to meet me anymore. Sad.

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I am always amazed at the beautiful sunset here. The sky is like a colorful painting tonight. Want to share the beautiful views with you, Mr. M. If we were friends, will you be willing to go to the beach to see the sunset with me?

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Oh for god’s sake, I miss you so much.

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Amazing sunset again. How I wish you can see this Mr.M. I hope you had a nice day :)

XOXO

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An exciting day today, since you will be back.

Last time you asked me whether I would be waiting for you at the airport, but I didn’t actually know you at that time. Now I have liked you and am willing to do so, but we have already lost contact.

How time flies. And how dramatic is the life. We matched, chatted, met and disconnected, the whole process just lasted no more than 3 months. I guess I am not suitable for dating, it’s consuming. But I don’t regret to have met you.

Though we don’t talk anymore, but your coming back to the same country still makes me feels that we are a bit closer (at least geographically). Have a nice flight, Mr. M!

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How do you feel about coming back home? I suppose you are tired. Hope you won’t be bothered by the jet-lag too much Mr. M.

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Awwww, it’s so lucky to have the breathtaking northern light here. Did you see that Mr. M? I guess you may have gotten to bed early as usual.

Also meteor there! It’s said that making wish to the meteor, then you wishes will be realized! So I made a wish :) (sounds stupid right? Don’t laugh at me as I wish you are happy and healthy everyday!)

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I bet with myself: if I can also see the northern lights tonight, then I will text you to tell you I miss you. But unluckily I didn’t see it. Maybe this is the destiny.

The weather will be super nice tomorrow, you should bring the little angel out for a day trip Mr.M . You are a wonderful daddy, I guess you have already planned it.

How are you Mr. M? How’s your day going? Enjoy the rest of the day.

Btw, I miss your smiles again.

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Oh I like sunshine. It will be great to have picnic in sunny day like this.

I passed the place where we met at the first time, it feels like it happened in yesterday. I wanna say, you had me at hello, I really liked the whole of you.

Look! Lots of people lying on the grass land in the park, reading, chatting, writing or drawing. These daily life scenes are beautiful. Maybe that’s the real life, to spend time on the small daily joy.

Today is Mother’s Day, did you celebrate with your mom?

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Good morning Mr. M! I saw the sunrise today, it’s amazing!

Have you gotten up already? I guess you will go to the gym in the morning.

Wishing you a nice Monday ^*^

It has been a long day.

Quitting thinking about you is as hard as quitting drugs. I decide to give up controlling myself, just let it be, to miss you recklessly.

Good night Mr. M. Sweet dreams to you!

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Failed to fall asleep. Kept thinking about you.

A funny truth, I was quite impressed by your profile at that time since one of the pics you showed on the app is cute and funny, I thought you were an interesting person so I swiped right.

Though I knew it was just a normal sweet talk, but the time you said you were happy for our connection really made my day.

You wished me good luck in finding true love. I have thought about it for a while, maybe true love can only be found in the same gender? Men know more about men and women know more about women, maybe we have been seeking in the wrong direction all the time haha.

I am a lazy person, so I don’t want to re-download and fill in those profile information again as I have deleted my account before. But I redo it again just now to look for someone of my own gender. Unfortunately no girl matches with me…

Good luck with your seeking adventure Mr. M.

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Rainy day. Tried to bury myself on work so as to temporarily forget about you. But it doesn’t work.

I’m re-watching the TV series called Modern Love again. It’s a nice one, you may like it as well. Tell me which story in it you like the best if you have already watched it, Mr. M.

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The cloud is like a puffy quilt, what do you think it would feel like to sleep in a quilt like this?

Chatgpt4o is coming out these days, I remember our conversation on artificial intelligence.

I watched a movie called “I’m your man”. What if AI can be combined with bionic robots? How will the world be like then?

I still miss you, Mr. M.

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Rainy day again. It must be cosy to cuddle at home.

I want you, Mr. M.

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The summer vacation is coming. Where’s your favourite travelling destination, Mr. M? What’s there in your travel bucket list? I would love to go exploring the world with you if you’re up to.

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The sunset at the beach is amazingly beautiful. We should walk the dog here and see it together. Do you like outdoor activities Mr. M? I guess you like. We can also go hiking and camping together.

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Whitney Cummings, she is hilarious! I suppose it will be much more entertaining to watch her comedy show with you. I really love your smiles and laughters Mr. M.

Quite funny to recall the scene that we threw the pillow at each other after intimacy. Felt like two childish naughty kids hahah. But you are not that happy with me for that time right? Well, I am sorry I was so sleepy that day. I felt it. But it’s a pity that I don’t even have the chance to make it up for you now.

Details are the most difficult part to be erased from my mind though you have run away from my life thoroughly. I guess we may never cross paths again. Heartbreaking truth.

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It has been a month since we stopped contacted, Mr.M. I guess you probably had forgotten me.

My life is back to normal, regularly boring. You were the only crazy factor in my life previously.

You asked me whether it is a good thing to be crazy, I told you being a bit crazy is more interesting. I forgot to ask you back. What do you think? I guess you may agree on it right? We have the same personality type I suppose we share certain similarities.

Anyway, thinking of the truth that you are happily living in a nearby city is enough to make me feel satisfied.

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It feels like a century has passed. I have met different people, but they were not you, none of them is you. You are still my favourite boy Mr. M. How come I’m so attracted to you?

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When I close my eyes, I always imagine that I am holding you face to face, with my arms wrapped around your neck and my hands gently stroking the beard on your face.

I really really like you, long for you.

I must be insane. You will probably think I am insane Mr. M.

You may have met several girls and called them baby while I am still standing at the same place mourning for our past time.

Maybe one day when I look back at what I wrote and did will find myself absurd, ridiculous and immature. But so what? It’s quite hard for me to have a crush and it turns out that I just have a crush on you. This is the price of getting infatuated with you. All these mixed feelings, all these unfulfilled desires and wishes which makes me sad, I can only bear with it.

I want to hear from you, Mr. M. I want to know if you are doing good.

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Every time I hear the song “tonight I celebrate my love for you”, it reminds me of you.

It’s so weird, Mr. M.

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Which city is your favourite, Mr.M? I asked you before but unfortunately I forgot… hahahah, I went to a city I never been there before, it is quite interesting to just go to any random city without planning in advance.

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Did I mention that I am actually social phobia? Walking or traveling alone is not that pleasant. I always meet some strange guys tried to chat up with me which made me nervous and uncomfortable.

But there’s a magic inside you, staying with you calms me down. I am not chatty in real life when facing most of people, most people bore me, but you are an exception.

You are special to me, Mr.M.

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I found myself really nerdy and blunt, probably I have a long long reflection arc :)

I thought a friend is a gay until he tried to kiss me. I realized I really liked you until you lost interest.

For some of us, this is an unfortunate situation-Not attracted to the people that are attracted to us, and not attractive to the people that we’re attracted to.

What will you be attracted to, Mr. M?

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Have been busy these days. Today came across a sentence, “A man’s attraction comes from a woman’s imagination.”

I start to think of you a little bit less, Mr.M though it is still a routine for me to think of you everyday. But the frequency is less and the feeling of hurt is diminishing.

I don’t know you, and you don’t know me. Maybe I just like the you in my imagination. Or maybe I don’t like you, I just want to be you.

Maybe.

But I am not ready to move you out from my heart yet though I have no idea when you have resided there.

What should I do, Mr.M?

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I met a boy on my way back home. He asked me out on the weekend.

His vibe is like a boy I liked when I was in high school.

I may have to go out to meet new people to distract myself from you a little bit.

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I finally dreamed of you again Mr. M. You reached out to me in my dreams. You were too nice, too patient, too sweet and too affectionate. Even though I was asleep I realized it was just a dream, an untrue you in my dream. You will never treat me like that. So I woke myself up from dreams.

I guess there’s still a place for you in my heart. I feel myself so pathetic. Why can’t I just forget you?

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